The sky is falling! The sky is falling!

Again, I am struggling seeing myself as a part of the discourse on more than one occasion. I am referring to going crazy with references and immersing myself in literature, and then I hear others (in my field) discuss this author or that author, and I think to myself, "Why don't I remember that person? Should I know that person? How can they remember all of that?! I have to think really hard to remember what I had for breakfast!" I am hoping that being a scholar means that you're able to search and find what you're looking for, but you don't have to know everything up front. If I can just take a moment, breathe, and focus on what I'm truly wanting to learn or know, things will come. I am also trying to talk to people, too. Being a Ph.D. student can be lonely, because the work itself is inherent to a somewhat 'hermit-like' existence--you in your office (cave),going through mounds of information, attached to your computer, and sealing yourself off from the world(BTW, NOT conducive to family life--just sayin'). However, I want to know what others are thinking, or who they've read, or how they've approached things. The only drawback to this is that I find myself then comparing myself, and sometimes feeling worse, as if I haven't done enough, or I'm not good enough, or smart enough, or I don't know enough. I can't say how much I love this book--so much of what is written speaks to me. Also, I truly found so much meaning in text v. data, and the types of writing. I don't have the book in front of me, so pardon my error, but when the examples of the theoretical text and the explanatory(?) text (example 9.1.1 I think) and example 9.3.1-it was as if one the theoretical writing unpacked the first example--I loved that. Can you do both? I mean, when you're writing? Although I find the example tied to the theory (seeming) extremely difficult to write (for me--the first example I could do in my sleep--to have authenticity the 'v' word--man! I am so sorry that I don't have my book (It's at the jiu-jitsu dojo where my son and husband practice--I am sincerely hoping my husband brings it home)) Regardless--so many questions--although the book clarifies and answers. This will be a "bible" for me this year and next. I will know most of it by heart. Thank you for finding it.